New to blogging

Ok so I follow blogs and they have helped so much in my recovery or my attempted recovery.  They can also be extremely destructive.  Now I was never part of the proana community but On days this year that I still felt FAT even though I have been in recovery all year I would fast and just check out other blogs and it would help me starve.  I do not want my blog to give people ideas or make them worst.  I do however want to just spill my guts out and write my progress as I continue to recover.  If anyone wants to email me about their own problems, like if they want to talk about their eating disorder with someone, email me at: nickysedrelatedblog@gmail.com So I named my blog Nicky eats and sometimes cheats because it rhymed, hahaha I know it is really cheesy but it is what it is, I was dreaming about food as I do when I have restricted to much and that just popped in my head since my name is obviously Nicky.  Anyways the cheat part really makes sense for me because I was restrictive type anorexic, in fact thats the only eating disorder I have ever been diagnosed with but this year while recovering eating more was so hard to bare that illogically I started to binge because my weird mind thought that the pain from binging was being in control.  I was under surveilance because I was still 17 so I thought well if I cant be allowed to not eat and everyone wants me to eat I minus well eat until it hurts.  I hated it but I felt that it was a way to have control over my body instead of being tube fed and no control, it was stupid! Either way the first weeks I just binged probably 1400 calories a day which was like CRAZY a lot for me and I didn't gain weight but then I felt like I was without control.  So I started purging, and now I feel like anything can just lead me cheating myself out of recovery or relapsing.  I will probably blog more this week even if nobody reads this because I am relapsing into restricting not binging and purging since I can't afford it my teeth are so crappy now.  At least restricting will take a little longer for my teeth to get bad... again! My posts will not always be so eatingdisorded, like sometimes I may post about healthy eating.. ironic I know but throughout my whole 2 years of eating disorder hell I have been orthorexic through thick and thin.  I am more scared of unhealthy food than I am at getting fatter which is insane! Hopefully if you are reading this which I don't know why you would be since it is too long and probably boring but I hope to get in contact with any of you! I also hope to be free of food weight and exercise obsessions but for now I will just be posting!
PS I didnt edit this post so if it reads crappy then oopsy XOXO Nicky